Another Saturday Night

So tonight I'm meeting Moe for drinks and possibly dancing...not sure what all. But it will fun to hang out with her. We keep talking about getting together but it never seems to work out. Makes we wonder if I should have stayed up so late last night...

So the undercurrent of drama just keeps on flowing by. I wonder if I should try to find out more about it.

Last night was fun. I love hanging out with Marie and Rachel...gosh, I wish i knew where my camera charger was...in fact, i'm not even sure where the camera is...I have to find it before Christmas....we HAVE to have new pictures at Christmas.


Hope everyone's Thanksgiving was great!!!!

I wish I could help

Why is it that the thoughts one has at 1 AM disappear when the morning comes? I had a poem to write last night but now i can't find it.

I wish i could convince you that most of what you feel is normal. That you can't continue to blame everything on what you aren't. That life is just hard most of the time. Yes, I know it looks like it is easy for so many others but EVERYONE, i repeat EVERYONE has their own issues and lives in their own hell. it is what you do with it that matters.

I wish i could get you outside of yourself. Get you to see that you can make different choices and that we all miss someone. There are times when we all want to run away and be someone else. I tried to tell you. I don't know if you heard me.

I wish i could help you find a way to be yourself and stop worrying about what others think. It is hard when the one you want doesn't want you or can't be with you for WHATEVER reason. But you have to keep going.

You can't threaten to harm yourself every time you get found out. Sometimes change is good. Sometimes it is better to be the one to say good bye and to walk away. We alll have secrets...no one will ever know all the thoughts in your head (you won't even know them all).

I love you. Be kind to yourself and those around you.

Thanksgiving already?

Where did the fall go? I can't believe it's almost December. I haven't started shopping for Christmas yet but for the first time in years I am sort of looking forward to it all. In the meantime though...I've quit Kohl's and started my part time stuff at the bank. I am looking forward to seeing what my paycheck will look like this week too. Doesn't help that i have a HUGE bill from my car and getting Tim new clothes...

So i need to find the cord to my camera to load all my pictures again...to fix my computer Royce had to wipe the hard drive and we lost everything...and my camera need charging so i have no idea where i'm going to find them.

Nothing else is new...

Did you miss me?

Why is it that when Royce's computer is down he spends hours and hours and hours on my computer until he gets his back up and running but then when MY computer goes down he lets it sit for TWO months???? He has worked on it sporadically and is pretty sure we need a new operating system but has he gone and gotten it? NO. He even told me he was going to do it last weekend but that didn't happen. I was at work both days (and a party one night) so i wasn't around to ask him about it but really, what kind of birthday gift was it to only last 4 months? AND it was probably his programs that caused the problems in the first place. I love how he blames Tim when the computer is down and Tim blames him...

I don't care what went wrong and who did what, I just want my computer back. I miss playing with pictures and writing something on a semi regular basis.

So today is Veterans Day. Hug one for me because I LOVE this random day off. I got to go to the doctor without worrying about the time and i can go to the dentist without leaving early (and worrying about time). I am doing sheets (don't ask how long it has been TOO embarassing) and I hope to have lunch with a friend in a minute. I also need to buy sheets because Sarah's was ripped and we don't have any other double bed sheets in the house.

So Saturday is my last day at Kohl's. I will try to talk more about that once I'm really done. 5 1/2 years of part time labot...more fun than not but it had it's ups and downs.

Time to run and bring the dog in. And run to have lunch with Moe.

Later maybe...i want to make Lasagne so I need to get food.