visiting home

I can't believe the house looks so small. It always felt plenty big enough while I was growing up.

This is another view, coming up from the driveway. I sort of miss the roses and other bushes. Maybe there are flowers in front in the spring though. I will have to see next trip.

This is a random tree in the neighborhood. I've never seen or heard of putting a face in a tree...although maybe since Lord of the Rings they've gotten popular. Sort of remind me of what an Ent must look like.

And no journey home would be complete without a shot of the school...of course it was different 30 years ago too. I should have taken a picture of an angle that would be more familiar to those of us that hung out there in the 60's & 70's. Or maybe take pictures of more of the changes.

walking on egg shells

So because someone is tired of no one picking up after themselves or being considerate of the others that live in this house we are all dodging the yelling and avoiding the one in a bad mood.  Yet for years I did it all while you lived in your bubble and there was no model for anyone to learn anything different.  So we walked around and did everything for you and you were in a bad mood and now that I don't do anything you are still in a bad mood.  Yes, I know you were stressed but you should be relieved and glad to have dodged a bullet.  But no, you are in a crappy mood and we all know it.  I'm sorry you're tired but so am I.  

Yes, I am tired of living in a place where no one does anything...(ok except you)... IF the kitchen sink was fixed I would do dishes but I am really tired of finding them in the laundry room sink and I was tired of doing dishes to cook dinner to do dishes again.    

dishes all over the house

people up at all hours

people not considerate of those of us that need to get up in the morning

I could go on but it gets too depressing.  I'm so overwhelmed that I can't seem to get started - and most of the time I don't want to start because no one will appreciate it and whatever I get done will be undone almost as soon as I finish.  

I bought new towels for the parents to use when they come to visit.  I wanted to keep them nice and asked my children NOT to use them.  Yeah, right that didn't last - the visit was postponed they think they can use them when there are no other towels are clean because they have left them all in balls in their rooms and if I take the time to get them all together and washed the cycle just begins again.

And I wonder why I'm so tired....

Friday Night

So lasts night i took my blood pressure...it was higher than I'd like but I suppose it is what passes for normal for me. For those of you that care it was 125 /89...it has been a stressful week. I'm not entirely sure why. I've been more of the anti anxiety medicine which seems to help but i don't like being able to tell when i haven't taken it. I need to get something that i can be on longer term -I've been taking my "emergency" stuff. And of course as i get closer to the end of the prescription that i will have to call the doctor to get more i want to take it less often. I may have to break down and go see the doctors just to get it all worked out. it would be nice to know what they want my blood pressure to be...it's up, it's down...i feel faint, i feel bloated...i gain weight, i lose it...it's just annoying. Sort of like this time of year.

It snowed one day all day and it was really pretty out. i took some pictures in the dark as my camera's battery died. I will try to download them here. I'll show the car too...the one that Colleen's friend gave her that Royce is driving...he got rid of the other two. I feel bad for her because she really wanted it to be her car and he will probably drive it into the ground like he does all the vehicles....looking at this picture makes me think it's my car...shows how much i know - NOT


The pictures are reversed, I will have to work on them tomorrow...it's too late to worry abou them now.  

Not much else going on.  

six words telling a story

our past confuses our future hopes

fork in road take the other

phone rings smile its for you

another chance love don't blow it

broken heart mends slowly tread softly

this life not what i expected

nothing ventured nothing gained try again

the last one was pretty cliched

this is harder than one would think.

I'm not sure i got what i wanted in any of them...can you do it? tell a story about something in six words?