Cold Morning in January

so these pictures are two years old but they make me think of warm places.

Today isn't as cold as it has been but the house is chilly and the one child awake is grumpy. Makes me want to look on sunny days when we were happy. We're going bowling later today, maybe i will take my camera and see what we end up with there.

Life is busy as ever. I'm looking forward to another week of hunting for addresses and trying to get 1099's mailed and then correcting those we sent out to the wrong people...fun.

I like how Colleen and Tim are coming through this rock.

This one is on the far side of the island. We love to watch the waves spray into the sky and when it is really windy it blows on us.

There's another one of colleen in a similar pose but i like this one with Tim and Sarah too. I need to fine a more recent picture of Sarah so you can see how grown up she has suddenly become.

Here she is at Christmas -sorry if it has been here before...

This one is Colleen last summer. I like the color of the sunset on her face.

More Pictures

Saturday night before heading to Steve's for dinner we got a picture of all the "kids". We even got Andrew & Leslie to join in the fun. Didn't see much of them either trip.

Katie working on taking 2008 pictures on her trip

Jon hugging the mysterious van we found in the neighborhood

Sarah at Steve & Nina's

The Jones boys doing dishes

Steve & Dylan building a fire

Almost Christmas

Time to try to put pictures back on my blog...I got some pics when in DC last weekend. Wish I was there today because more family is in town and I only have a little time there again this weekend.

Here's Sarah & Kaylie!




Here I am with Steve!



Here's Grandma Thea and Mikey...Isn't he CUTE???

Wrapping Gifts for a Cause

So yesterday sarah and i went up to the local outlet mall to wrap gifts to raise money for ACS - Relay for Life. We had 4 people stop in (one i dragged in from the bench outside our door) in the 3+ hours we were there...BUT the people that came in were incredibly generous....so now if Sarah can get $5 more dollars she will qualify for a t-shirt...and I still have to do my own fundraising but it is a little easier for me. well, i can drop into branches and see if i can get people to give me $5 a shot. that worked for me last year...

Today needs to be spent getting my own holiday decorating and presents on their way...

It was a nice experience although i had hopes for more people both wrapping and coming in to wrap.

Off to work on Christmas for us now.

Another Saturday Night

So tonight I'm meeting Moe for drinks and possibly dancing...not sure what all. But it will fun to hang out with her. We keep talking about getting together but it never seems to work out. Makes we wonder if I should have stayed up so late last night...

So the undercurrent of drama just keeps on flowing by. I wonder if I should try to find out more about it.

Last night was fun. I love hanging out with Marie and Rachel...gosh, I wish i knew where my camera charger was...in fact, i'm not even sure where the camera is...I have to find it before Christmas....we HAVE to have new pictures at Christmas.


Hope everyone's Thanksgiving was great!!!!

I wish I could help

Why is it that the thoughts one has at 1 AM disappear when the morning comes? I had a poem to write last night but now i can't find it.

I wish i could convince you that most of what you feel is normal. That you can't continue to blame everything on what you aren't. That life is just hard most of the time. Yes, I know it looks like it is easy for so many others but EVERYONE, i repeat EVERYONE has their own issues and lives in their own hell. it is what you do with it that matters.

I wish i could get you outside of yourself. Get you to see that you can make different choices and that we all miss someone. There are times when we all want to run away and be someone else. I tried to tell you. I don't know if you heard me.

I wish i could help you find a way to be yourself and stop worrying about what others think. It is hard when the one you want doesn't want you or can't be with you for WHATEVER reason. But you have to keep going.

You can't threaten to harm yourself every time you get found out. Sometimes change is good. Sometimes it is better to be the one to say good bye and to walk away. We alll have secrets...no one will ever know all the thoughts in your head (you won't even know them all).

I love you. Be kind to yourself and those around you.

Thanksgiving already?

Where did the fall go? I can't believe it's almost December. I haven't started shopping for Christmas yet but for the first time in years I am sort of looking forward to it all. In the meantime though...I've quit Kohl's and started my part time stuff at the bank. I am looking forward to seeing what my paycheck will look like this week too. Doesn't help that i have a HUGE bill from my car and getting Tim new clothes...

So i need to find the cord to my camera to load all my pictures again...to fix my computer Royce had to wipe the hard drive and we lost everything...and my camera need charging so i have no idea where i'm going to find them.

Nothing else is new...